10,150 days of Love and Joy

I know that a part of why Simone ultimately let go of her grip on life was her love for me. Her devotion. She wanted to free me from taking care of her, from putting my life on hold, putting my music and consciousness work on hold. She wanted me to be free to serve others, the world, and to have a chance to enjoy life.

She knew, but could never completely grasp — or fully accept — that being with her was more important to me than everything else combined. And it wasn't close.

I loved being absolutely dedicated to her, never once felt obligated because of her condition. I was free…with her right there. She had turned me into Love. I lived and breathed it. What an incredible gift that was. 

I was never going to stop seeking a way for her to heal. This wasn't some glorious “hero's journey”, it was simply my obvious mission. My reason for being. And when Eastern and Western medicine, and renowned healers from around the world had no viable answers, I learned numerous healing techniques, like Quantum Touch, Matrix Energetics, and more. These would ease her pain, but only temporarily.

Wish I could heal you with a magic kiss… 
You could laugh and dance again and be in bliss… 
I know you'd settle for a pain free day…
And that's okay…
It's okay 

Wish you could sleep a little in my arms… 
Relaxing in the healing light of our one heart… 
I know it's time for you to fly away… 
Please not today… 
Oh honey stay… 
Just one more day

But stay she couldn't. Stay, she wouldn't. With all that she'd so courageously lived through… there came a moment when she knew.

I can't foresee a day when I will not cry when remembering her whisper, “I'm leaving.” There was such an immense peace emanating from her that I had no choice but to surrender. We held each other and cried.

35 days later… after 10,150 days of love and joy, creating and evolving, she drifted away in her sleep.

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